minor emotional meltdown.
i had blood drawn yesterday to measure my level of estradiol (estrogen) because i’ve been frustrated with my (lack of) progress these last few months.
the result came back this morning, and my estrogen level is way lower than it needs to be. which means that my body isn’t absorbing estradiol from the patches i’ve been wearing. and that little has actually happened in the last nine months when compared with where i should have been by now.
i cried for three hours straight this morning. my eyes are still swollen and stinging. transition is what i’ve lived and breathed this last year, and this feels like a major setback.
some friends have made the valid point that i was reasonably happy yesterday, and if i haven’t been getting the estrogen i need during these last months, then i can expect good things once that’s corrected. but it’s hard to look beyond today, for the moment at least.
i believe the plan now is to start estradiol injections. i’m waiting for my endo to call me back. but that was what was previously discussed.
i just can’t believe this.