hi. thank you very much for the compliments.
you seem like you mean well, so i am going to give you the benefit of the doubt. but if you wish at all to be respectful, you should be very careful with the word “shemale," which is a concept invented for the sexual or fetishistic interest of others. my transition is about me. i am doing this for me and no one else.
i have not considered “stopping halfway." i am a woman; the entire point of transition is to put my body right with my soul. i spent too many years being utterly miserable as a boy, and i am just now starting to feel that weight lifted off my shoulders. there is a long way to go, but at least i’m starting to see some sort of light ahead. the thought of any maleness about me is practically too painful to bear.
now, i assume by “shemale" you mean a woman with a penis. by definition this is already me. but i am a girl, plain and simple. some girls have penises. while i can separate the genitals from the gender with relative ease, and having a penis doesn’t bother me as much as it bothers some transgender women, i probably would have the full surgery if the opportunity arose. right now, however, it’s very expensive and not covered by insurance. and so i remain focused on how i look to the world with my clothes on. because whoever i am intimate with and allow to undress me will be very special, indeed, and generally unconcerned with whether i have a penis or a vagina.
as for your final point about a partner, i do hope you’re right. i’ve been single for a very long time. and i’m a romantic at heart.