so, the person above, who i reblogged the list of questions from, not realizing i had saved this as a draft for later, asked me 19, 22, 28.
• 19: my biggest “what if” is “What if I end up alone forever?”… only people of a certain disposition are afraid of ending up alone forever at 30. i am of that disposition. this is closely followed by, “What if I never look as feminine as I pray I will?” like, once my physical transition is mostly complete, what if i’m not satisfied? i feel like i look more and more like a girl, but not nearly enough yet.
• 22: i am inside my house, and i just moved in here last month. it had a smell to it when i moved in, sort of like paint and a slight campfire scent. but it mostly now smells like nothing, or like the candles i have.
• 28: the worst injury i ever had … i would say when i was two years old, and i was standing on a swiveling chair looking out the window at the first snowfall of the season. the chair turned and i fell head-first into the radiator. it is my earliest memory. … another time i got very sick in high school and nearly died in the hospital, and that was more critical, but it wasn’t really an “injury.”