so, i was prescribed oxycodone for some pain i’ve been having (i’ll be fine).
and all i’m going to say is that it’s probably a good idea it’s a one-time only prescription.
i took it last night before bed, the maximum dose prescribed by my doctor, and i had the most calming, beautiful, non-scary high. in the span of an hour, i experienced the following:
- body-mind disconnection. if i lay still in bed, i’d lose sensation here and there. i’d wonder who was touching my thigh, only to realize it was my own hand. if i moved, though, everything returned to normal immediately.
- the feeling that if i got out of bed and stood up, i’d be 20 feet tall and would break through my ceiling.
- crazy pinwheels of light when my eyes were closed.
- an overhead view of myself in bed, as a boy with long hair and lipstick. and with a man i didn’t know sitting at my desk nearby. (ok, that one was kind of strange.)
- an extended threshold between dreaming and waking states. so i’d see elements from my dream, objects, sitting in my dark bedroom with me.
- a feeling like i wanted to kiss just about everyone.
- and i’m not even going to go into the sex dreams. omg.
i don’t do drugs. ever. so i’m a little new to experiences like these …